No more honeymooning.
But that’s not necessarily a bad thing at all. In fact, I think it’s better this way. I enjoy it so much more. Why? Things feel less forced and more natural. We can joke around and talk in a way where we don’t really worry whether we’re being too “odd” or too “awkward”. Things feel more realistic, so to speak. But that also means I am starting to notice flaws in him and myself, which kind of led to our first teeny-tiny bump in the road.
I got annoyed at him for giving really small responses towards something I was currently very invested in. I voiced out my annoyance and gave him an attitude, apologized for it, but still told him I was annoyed at his lack of input. What’s wrong on my part was he was watching a movie with his roommate and I knew that, yet, I still bugged on him for not paying much attention to my texts.
So now, I feel kind of like an asshole, horrible girlfriend and texted him another apology letting him know that it was my fault and not his. Because it honestly wasn’t. He was watching a freakin’ movie. Who texts or pays attention TO texts during movies?! It was disrespectful of me to have flipped out on him.
I hope he’s not too upset but hey, there will always be bumps in the road to smooth out. It’s all a matter of commitment and learning to deal with each other’s imperfections. If anything, I am only liking him more because I am starting to see that yes, he’s a human with flaws too, not some God that I glorified him out to be during the honeymoon stage.
